Dashed

I just found out something, no.. actualli i went lookin for it. and words cannot describe how hurt and betrayed i feel. It's not regardin BGR, i can tell u that. Or friendship.

I never thot that being protrayed in an untruthful, extremely mean way, to total strangers no less, would hurt so much to know.
Yes, i went looking it. and i found it. and i am sadden. When u try your hardest to give someone the best u can do, they do not appreciate it at all. Instead, they would rather choose to harp on the lil' instances of the cracks of your veneer. They rem these incidents n nurse it like a baby, and so it grows bigger n bigger. But whateva wonderfully nice things u may do, they will never rem or call attention to it.

And they protray themself as e victim. the poor innocent, weak, sweet victim. when actually most, if not all, the incidents were a result of this "victims" sorely lacking good character traits. And the worst thing is when they will never feel that way. to them, they are always being wronged and being victimized. Maybe when this person is more mature, it will realise that all the while, i was here trying my best to build bonds. but my efforts were always shot down by sarcastic, rude remarks.

Shld i even bother any more? is it worth it? Here i m, thinking that i was making progress. But now i found out that i have been horribly wronged n it irks me so much tt it is just totally slaggin my character. When actually i feel that im the victimized one. Haiz..

Im not sure what i shld do. juz continue as normal? try harder? or give up?

It is now that i realise that a single incident, or "scene" can be perceived so differently by sumone else. Or sumting that is being said, when heard by another person, can take on a whole different meaning.