My Life in a nutshell

Is such a bore!!(Refer to title of post) Yes, again i was late. 10.50am. lolx And when i stepped into the lab Jon starts to say.. "wah, new record man," etc etc.. hehehe
I think if i do go on time, they will be even more surprised.

So anyway, My life in a nutshell ya. Basically, this past week i spend my time doing crap nothing, zilch.. An average day goes like this

7 am _-_ Woken by my hp alarm blasting "Wo yao fei" coz it's the noisiest ring tone i have. Laze in bed, tossing and turning. Periodically looking at the time to see how late i will be.

8.30-9 am _-_ Wozzily get up and out of bed when nature calls. lolx

8.50-9.20 am _-_ Have had a nice hot bath and getting ready for school. Looking for breakfast even tho i'm already half an hour late. Then i make my way to school.

10.30-10.50 am _-_ Reach school, not looking forward to a day of mindless wasting my time.

Aye, yes it's seems super long winded, so i shall gloss over all the extremely *Yawn* boring details.

Throughout the day, i will surf the net, secretly play online games by accessing a forbidden website which allows me to enter more forbidden websites. lolx.. I try calling my supervisor, who is never around. I watch L'arc en Ciel concert videos. Chat with someone on e-messenger. Eat, take breaks, walk around, smoke and today, i fell asleep! *giggles*

Today was the first day none of my old classmates came to school. I was dreading having to lunch alone and actually considered anorexia not eating. But lucky me to have this nice guy who offered to eat wif me, without me asking. i think it's coz i kept complaining that i was lonely. Pathetic so we went to AMK Mos burger for lunch. Had a nice time just getting to know each other. Coz i think he may be my only lunch kaki. *frownz* I sound like such a lamer. Just so long as he is not interested in me romantically, as he said, we will get along fine. -smiles-

I usually leave earlier, provided that i continually cannot find my supervisor. and after school, i never go home straight.

Generally, i will reach home after midnite or 1 plus. Feeling crappy super tired. Take a bath and try to fall asleep, but only dropping off at like 3-4 am.

I am dying from boredom and routine, albeit slowly, but torturously.

My life is miserable. I am stuck in a rut. I feel that my pathetic little world is closing in on me. It makes me feel like doing fucking stupid, reckless things.

It is dangerous.

-Late Late Late-

OMG!! I was late again! Yesterday and today.. I reached at 10.30!! Lolx.. But my Supervisor is never around.. Haiz.. I am so bored.. Nothing to do.. Yesterday was bad, today will be even worse.

First things first, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YILIN!!!! -sings- "Happy birthday to you, you are born in a zoo, all the monkeys and elephants.... All want to kiss you!!!" Lolx.. Yes, childish I know, but cute all the same.. Last nite sorta had a mini celebration? More like a meet up, for yilin's birthday. Went to Music Underground. My first time there.. Sad to say, I didn't get the full experience. Coz the "disco" section that yilin always goes to, was so so deserted!! So we sat in the wine bar area instead and listened to the live band. They were good, especially the lead, coz he oozed... charisma.. *yum yum* then my babe came to pick me up. (Thank you Baby!) The worse thing was I didn't enjoy myself much, coz i had a friggin bad headache! Urgh.. My head was throbbing the whole damn night! And I threw up, even tho I didn't drink. Argh!!! Fucking Shitty headaches!!! This has been plaguing me quite regularly of late.

I don't have much time to blog nowadays. And I think that posts will be heavily littered with complaints, whining and assorted foul language, occasionally. -grinz- Actually, that describes just about all my posts, so I guess won't be much of a difference.

Ciao

Show me the Money!!! Wahahaha

I got the fucking job.

Yay! YAy! -Victory dance-

Turns out they just wanted us to go down to sign the document proclaiming that I, ____________ (insert my name) state that blah blah blah.. The usual pre-employment shit paperwork.

So now that i am gainfully employed, hopefully i won't do anything to screw up this super part time job. I'm a boutique assistant.. lolx.. Yes, i hope it's one of those flower vase easy kinda jobs. Maybe do abit of sweeping and cleaning and basically sit and lounge around til customers come in. -smiles-

I start work on the 7th of May. And my FYP starts today! The briefing was at 9 this morning. I reached at 930, what else is new and the bloody thing ended at 940. So it was just to tell you where to report. And my reporting time was 1330. So sad.. 4 hrs of nothing to do, no one to hang with (coz all my pals are graduating le, so all completed or completing their projects.) Lucky for me, Yongxin came to sch (project extended) at 10 plus.. so now i am in his lab (which is also mine) blogging. Naughty Gal I am so bored!! I think that i will have to get used to being alone this semester. So sad..

Have to pull up my socks, and hope that i dun have any supp papers. Make new friends? Maybe

Au revoire

-OWW!!! I feel Good... Ta da ta da ta da da..-

Yay! I'm back! Hehehe.. Took a much needed hiatus, felling slightly better now. But my body is so achy...

Yesterday I met up with Eugene at Ngee Ann Poly. He taught me some dance steps. It was fun, but so obvious that I didn't have the groove. I mean, i have not danced for more then 2 years. But silly little me thought that once I tried again, Automatically I would be able to get my groove back. Hur hur.. How sad.. The first eight and I was sweating perspiring sweating like a pig! Urgh! And I had trouble catching the steps =/ Not blowing my own trumpet or anything, but I used to be really good at catching steps. Really quite fast. At least that's what people used to say. Haiz... Now im just a little slow poke *cries*

So now I know how seriously out of shape I am. Gotta make sure I try to do something about it. But im such a procrastinator I always put things off. Hmm... I'll try I hope. -grinz-

Later I gotta go for a second interview. Im not sure why they wanna do this. But I really hope that I'll get the job, coz if not, I would have wasted 2 trips down. *cross fingers*

I will try to update more when I get back tonight. But no promises, coz I start to feel real tired when I get home nowadays. Maybe i'm getting old But, I will try!!! Ganbate Ne!!!

Oh ya, my mama said yesterday, that if we (My sis and I) do not clean up our rooms by our birthdays, no prezzie for us. Boo hoo.... She asking me to do something inconceivable, coz she wants it spick and span.. Oh my oh my... Her descriptions of our rooms.

Mama: (About sis's room) Your room looks like a Tsunami hit. Worst then a tsunami hit!
-Lolx- *sniggers*

But i laughed too soon..

Mama: (About my room) And yours, looks like a Salvation Army. All the piles and piles of clothes and papers -_-"

Actually, i thought it looked more like a junkyard, lolx.. but who was i to argue.. -winkz-

How am i going to clean it up before my birthday??? (It's on the 18th of May FYI, remember my prezzie ya =p)

In a while, Crocodile... Gonna eat lunch..

-Bloated-

Urgh.. Was too tired to blog last night. and was waken up far too early by an idiot someone. Haiz..

Stomach feeling really bloated. Full of wind and crap . Not in the mood to blog, so.. Later gator..

~Inconsequential~

I was attempting to change the color scheme of the wonderful home for my thoughts. But, in the end..This still looks best. Maybe because it was what inspired me from the start. So altho I may have added other small inconsequential little extras. The basic simplicity of my space is still there. [Quote] Simplicity can be beautiful [/Quote]

Yes it can.
Maybe more so.

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Murphy's Law?

Feeling very tired... Today the weather was good.. but bad.. So sunny, sky so blue. But so farking hot!!! Argh!!! was melting in the heat man..

So anyway, went to church (Yes, like a good christian gal) Then went for lunch with my mama and sis at Bt Panjang Plaza. ( If you don't live in the west, you probably have never heard of this place, i think.. ) Had a nice meal of Japanese Cuisine(at the foodcourt la) and Taiwan's XXL Crispy Chicken =)

After lunch, my sis went to study and i accompanied my mama to the library. Yes, i really am a pretty filial daughter hor. Then she went home and i went to meet my babe.

So i was on the bus, just got on the highway and.. Shyte! my mama called and she doesn't have the keys with her! So she's stuck outside. Now why didn't she have her keys? Coz my bro left his in Thailand, and borrowed hers.

So what was i supposed to do? Let her wait til goodness knows what time, when someone else reaches home? Of coz not, i had to go aaallllll... the way back!! So i was really damn pissed off la. Im not the one who lost the keys, yada yada yada.. yet i have to be the one who has to make the sacrifice. KNN. really super duper pissed. And i raised my voice at her, on the line. Dammit! i couldn't control myself.. haiz..

anyway, i cooled down on the way back, and all's well that ends well.

Went to meet my babe, and i dunno what got into me. I was like a pyschotic biatch had an emotional breakdown. (Not the first time, won't be the last) But i really wanna find out what causes these episodes. I was in a bad way, I tried and tried to control my emotions, but in the end, the dam still broke *gushed man*. I was a mess =( It puts a huge strain on our relationship. He has no idea what is going on and why. or how to make me better. So he gets pissed as well.. coz i spoiled the day. Ya, like as if i wanted to get mind fucked do that purposely. So what should i do? See a shrink? That's like made for TV kinda thing. I know that there should be nothing extremely much wrong with me, but it's tiring... Sick of this topic, will try harder to do better *cross fingers*

We watched Gothika, i borrowed it. What a disappointment. Not scary at all.. Okai la, a little bit only, just a wee bit Should have watched Aishiteru Ze Baby instead. =p The day ended ok, as well as it could have, under the circumstances. But overall, i give it *2 out of 5 reality bites*

Going back to Saturday, i went for an interview with yilin. It's a boutique cum bistro, but they are opening a new outlet which will only be a boutique. Had a tough time finding the place, becoz of wrong info from the bus conductor Wished i could have smacked him! as well as general incompetence. we walked alot more then we needed too.. But of course we found it in the end. Looks like quite a neat place. (Neat as in interesting, not tidy, you idiot!) Since i can only work one day, i'm quite sure i won't get the job, but who knows *cross toes* (Fingers already in use, Ya, lame.. i noe)

On friday night, had abit of fun playing around with my sister's 5 in 1 curling tongs? erm , with flat irons attachment as well.

Here's looking at you babe.



~Yardstick Straight~
Compliments of my sis



~Angelique Curls~
Kudos to my mama



Me and my biatch, Yilin



Yes, it's me. "Auntie Style"
This is how i always look like at home ya.

Finally...

Coming soon to a blog near you...

For the animals

Axl: Yes, i did go to the Zoo =)

And it was loads of fun!!! Okai la, quite fun lohx.. But me being the terrible idiotic fool, just had to do something stupid.

Actually, not so stupid, but stupid all the same.

Time: 3.00+ p.m.
Location: Singapore Zoological Gardens

Wow whee... I've not been there for so so long, and it looke pretty good to me. Plus the very obvious Ben and Jerry's Cafe didnt do the landscaping any harm (teehee) There was a beautiful fountain at the entrance as well. At the ticketing area, u could see and feel the Zoo theme. Was really nice. Totally Safari feel =) *duh*

So we got the tickets which includes tram rides ($18) and hopped onto the tram straight away.. whilst looking at the wonderful scenery and trying to catch glimpses of the animals, the ride is accompanied by a very corny narration over the speakers. lolx.. For lazy bums, this is the way to go. But if you wanna see the animals properly, u have to walk.

We got down at the 2nd stop and started walking la. *click click click* my camera went. I keep oohhing and ahhing..*that's definitely Suaku* lolx While my babe just looked on with amused satisfaction (i think). Anyway, to cut a long long tedious story short. Basically i kept taking lots and lots of photos. My photo taking sessions were punctuated with the occasional squeals of delight =p

I'm sure you're wondering, What was the not so stupid thing i did? (Or more like salivating at the thought of a good laugh at someone else's misfortune) Well, firstly (yes, not just one thing) i was just too gung ho. I kept snapping and snapping so so many pictures in the beginning. Like 10 shots of the baboons. Coz i wanted nice nice picz. So when we were walking to "Children's Animal World" my cam low batted on me. Argh!!!!! What about my ponies? And cows? and pigs? and lil' lambs? Shyte! I saved the best for last, and in the end... Bleahx.. So i only had enough battery to take 3 pictures. And i couldn't get a picture of the most lovable baby lambs i have ever seen. the little thing actually stuck it's head through the "fence", begging to have its picture taken!!! *sobz* And ironically, i didn't get to see the elephants (coz the Zoo closes at 6, and i spent too much time looking at monkeys!) Ref. to title of prev post. Pretty pathetic aye.. Well, technically, i di get to see 2 of them. When they were being lead back from wherever they came from. So i guess that's a consolation *sniffs*

Second not so stupid thing. If u read my previous post, u would know that i kept going on about the polar bear rite? Well, after my huge disapointment with my stupid cam for failing me. We headed back to the entrance, coz we were starving! And of course, the gift shop was near the entrance. So went in and excitedly tried to find a polar bear (without being too obvious, coz i wanted to see if he would erm hrm.. take the initiative. Lolx) so i looked around, touched, this touch that. Try this, try that. (They have hand puppets that make noises. Lion: *Grrrowl* sho kawaii ne) look here, look there again. and again.... Then, as a last resort, asked the salesperson.

Me: Erm, miss, (softly hur) do you have any polar bears around?
Miss: Yes, over that side (points in a direction vaguely)
Me: Oh.. okai, thank you..

Walk over to the place so vaguely pointed at. Couldn't see any polar bears. Look here, look there again... Haiz..

Me: (to anonther salesperson) Excuse, me. Do you have polar bears?
Salesperson2: Yes, over here..

The nice lady helped me to find it.

Salesperson2: Ta Da.. Here it is. (okai, i lied about the "Ta da" part)

She held out an emansiculated (lazy to check spelling) off white bear.

Me: (Sounding abit desperate) "Erm.. do you have any others?
Salesperson2: No, sorry (gives me pitying look)

Okai, she didn't give me that look. But she would have if she knew how much i wanted to get a nice Fluffy, Fat polar bear.

So i didn't get my bear. *Cries* Why why why??

I shouldn't have left that for last. If not i would have gotten the $5 Ah Meng they sell at the snack shops.

So there you go, a long recap of my day at the Zoo. Enjoyable, but disapointing. I'm going again. To get my photos of the cute animals and the elephants. And ride on the carriage.

Will post the pics soon. They are all in my com, but i gotta set up a photo album, if not this page will take ages to load.

Aesthetics:
Total number of pictures taken for this trip: 165 excluding deleted ugly ones
Number of animals harmed: None *duh*
Number of extremely hungry tummies: 2 (one flat and one, not so flat. Make a guess whose is whose)

Think that's about it.

I should have gotten the lousy Ah Meng.

*Mummy, i can see the elephants....*

Ok, ok... the title doesn't mean anything at all. but i will be able to see the elephants lator on i guess. Really *inno eyes* Because...... I'm going to the zoo!!! WAhahahaha...

I'm meeting up wif my babe, or should i say, he's coming down to fetch me (finally) later on. Then off we go to the ZOO!! (childishly singing *We''re going to the zoo... You can come too....* Hehehe)

Kinda excited *rolls eyes* i know, i know.. so old still go Zoo for what right? Well firstly, i have not seen the new and improved "revamped" Singapore Zoologicals Gardens okai. ^Sua ku^ Haven been there in ages, years. Altho i do not relish the prospect of being food for the millions of bloodthirsty `jap-fighters there, i am really looking forward spending some quality time, in a different fashion, with my babe.

` mosquitoes: don't ask me why they are called that

So i'll charge up my, still much cherished, Dcam and i can *snap snap snap* all the lil' cutie animals. =) I wanna ride the pony, hehe.. but since i'm broke, and my babe's gonna be broke after paying for the entrance fee. WE can't afford it. So sad... =( Anyone still awake? Wanna sponser me a pony ride? Lolx. Hopefully can at least scrap together enough for lunch and maybe a nice little souvenier?

Babe: No!
Me: Pretty pretty please... with sugar on top
Babe: very expensive, the soft toys. so old oredi still wan soft toys for what?

*Yes, i wanted a soft toy souvenier from the zoo, since i was lil' i have been eyeing the polar bear. Wonder if it still looks the same.... Hmm, wonder if it's even there?*

(He feels that soft toys sre a waste of money, coz they are not useful) (I can think of lotsa interesting ways to use soft toys.Like role playing? Lolx.. *sniggers*)

Me: hur hur

*Trying to sa jiao.. Yes, guilty as charged. Even i stoop to such lowly means of using my feminine wiles occasionally =p*

Me: Go Zoo, din get souvenier, very sad wan u noe? and i've always wanted the polar bear.... <--Use sweet little girl voice for best effect
Babe: ....
Babe: See how la, dun eat lunch lor
Me: erm.. no lunch?.. hmm.. tml den say

Lolx.. i dun think i can sacrifice lunch for a polar bear. albeit a very cute expensive one (if it's still there) I'm still thinking about it. maybe i can pack some sandwiches? Dammit! No bread , maybe i can scrap afew pieces of stale bread do i have the time to go and buy some stuff tml morning? Now it's about 530. Have to get up by 9. Bathe, epilate change, getting ready for a Zoo outing will take like 1 1/2 Hrs 45mins? hopefully... But what should i wear? Shorts?(jap fighters) Jeans?(too hot) Spandex and PVC ensemble?(too SM) Haiya, what to wear man?

Better go sleep first, Don't wanna be mistaken for one of the animals later (Panda)

Nite Peepz

Feeling Fcyukish

I don't know what's wrong with me. Why do i feel so... lost? I've got an exam tomorrow, and instead of studying for it (i still haven open my book yet) i seem to be delibrately avoiding doin that. I feel bereaved for some reason that i cannot fathom. No, no one died or anything (thank goodness), just an overall feeling of inadequecy.

Feeling particularly unattractive today. Nothing to do with my limp, frizzy "Auntie" clipped up hair. Or my sallow, blemish prone complexion. It's all mental. Inside, im just insecure and in need of some TLC. No, chocolate won't be much help this time. *winkz* I guess i need to be by myself and sort this out first.

My level of anti-socialness has increased dramatically man. Haiz haiz... Lazy and lethargic. Don't feel like going out or having to "entertain" people. I'm a bad fren to have sometimes. I've got an SP mate, who used to keep in touch with me regularly. every few weeks she will ask me out. or at least forward me a cute msg. But im so mean. i took her for granted. I seldom met up, and i seldom sms her either. Haven heard from her for quite a long time now, thinking of asking her out, but cant seem to force myself to msg her yet. After my exams, iwill.. i hope =\

For me, i dun need to go out. and when im in this kinda mood, i will just stay home and vegetate until my "social bar" is red or empty (those who play The Sims will get this) lolx. Must make a resolution to be a better person, more sociable.

Guess im just in a funk. mei guan xi, im used to it.

Gutted

I feel so so envious of friends who are close to their siblings. And so sad that my home life is far from happy. For me at least.

My mummy: Works so hard that sometimes she gets short tempered, so she snaps at me even tho i din do anything. or if the others pissed her off, all of us get ear fulls. But it's been so taxing on her, so i try my best to try and be a gd gal. but it's difficult tho. She loves us sho much, and always tries to give us the best. but i think she is realli tired with all our crap. Wearing her down, n her work as well. Plus that man. haiz

My bro: Doesnt talk to any of us much at all. we used to b real close when we were young. what changed? Growing up i guess. different interests and wat nots. Juz wish tt he wld b more forthcoming to my mama, so tt she wldnt worry so much. I juz wish tt we cld all communicate more.

My sis: I try my best, i realli do. I try not to get so irritated by her. She is rude and sarcastic. Not juz to mi. And it saddens mi so much. esp when she is rude to my mama. Like not answering, or talking back. We used to be real close too, but now. She has no respect for me, and doesnt bother to conceal her superiority that she feels over mi (i think) i know, she's prettier, got more frens, know more com stuff, etc.. but i'm still e older wan, and she shld juz respect that. When she is in a gd mood, we get along quite well. But woe betide anyone who talks to her when she is in a foul mood. She seems to make mi out as the wicked stepsister, but i think i treat her jolly gd comparatively. And she gives me e feeling that she wants to get outta here asap. Why cant we b frenz as well? I love my sis very much, i juz wish that she wld see that.

I wanna have the kinda close r/s tt i see my frenz havin with their siblings. Gng out together. Calling each other occasionally. Talkin and telling each other about their lives and wats gng on.

I dunno y, but this feeling has been eating away at me for mths. this feeling of incompleteness, because i dun have a close knit family. I hope tt one day in the near future. She will mature enuff to realise hw well i actualli treat her. n hw much my mama loves us. Prom nite, Xmases, Bthdays... WE shld all learn to appreciate our family, we dun noe how long we'll have them.

Blood is always thicker den water.

Dashed

I just found out something, no.. actualli i went lookin for it. and words cannot describe how hurt and betrayed i feel. It's not regardin BGR, i can tell u that. Or friendship.

I never thot that being protrayed in an untruthful, extremely mean way, to total strangers no less, would hurt so much to know.
Yes, i went looking it. and i found it. and i am sadden. When u try your hardest to give someone the best u can do, they do not appreciate it at all. Instead, they would rather choose to harp on the lil' instances of the cracks of your veneer. They rem these incidents n nurse it like a baby, and so it grows bigger n bigger. But whateva wonderfully nice things u may do, they will never rem or call attention to it.

And they protray themself as e victim. the poor innocent, weak, sweet victim. when actually most, if not all, the incidents were a result of this "victims" sorely lacking good character traits. And the worst thing is when they will never feel that way. to them, they are always being wronged and being victimized. Maybe when this person is more mature, it will realise that all the while, i was here trying my best to build bonds. but my efforts were always shot down by sarcastic, rude remarks.

Shld i even bother any more? is it worth it? Here i m, thinking that i was making progress. But now i found out that i have been horribly wronged n it irks me so much tt it is just totally slaggin my character. When actually i feel that im the victimized one. Haiz..

Im not sure what i shld do. juz continue as normal? try harder? or give up?

It is now that i realise that a single incident, or "scene" can be perceived so differently by sumone else. Or sumting that is being said, when heard by another person, can take on a whole different meaning.

OMG....

Okai, i finally gt what anoymous who left a comment recently was talking abt. My guestbook, so empty, but looks like an advertising site!!!! *doh* So pls frenz, esp if u blog. Sign my Guestbook la.. =)

so anyway, sat for my 1st paper today. could do it, not very well tho.. but hopefully overall can pass ba.. *cross fingers n toes* hehehehe~

Gotta study for my last paper on wed. still haven started. haiz.. but even after my exams oso no time to enjoy. Attachment starts on e 25th!! No holiday for poor mi >_< Lil pic for ya all.



Bought it for my sis for last yr's Xmas.. hehehe.. sho kawaii ne!!! wanna get more den mayb if got e time can try moding.

Cheerio

headaches

Finally, i've managed to complete one revision paper.. haiz haiz.. but i haven started on past yr papers n tutorials yet. tml at 1230 i'll b sittin in e exam hall, n im wondering if i will b prepared by den. n i haven even touched anything 4 e 2nd paper yet... omg, im in deep shyte.

Today i collected my new specs. i gt a silver titanium kinda frame. n i went for tinted lenses. grey tint. i came out lookin darker den expected. n e colors doesnt go with my skin tone (e frame in brown looked better) but wat e hell! im sick of brown! brown hair, brown eyes, brown wateva. so took e more faddy color instead. coz im plannin on dyein my hair black neeway.. lolx.. ya, i actualli plan on dyein it black n blue/purple. still decidin ya.. hehehehe so when i get tt done, my specs will look so much better on mi. coz nw its clashin with my hair n skin tone.. yup yup yup =)

i juz reached hm, so gotta go bathe den study. n i hope i wun fall aslp. i suffer frm insomnia, but e moment i take out my stuff to study, "poom" i fall aslp so easily.. lolx..

due to certain issues i decided to have abt privacy, i decided to take down e previous post..

Sorry for the inconvenience caused

Sick sick sick

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LAtin Dance

Yoo hoo!!! anyone interested in American latin dance? gearin towards competing n stuff. best is to have sum dance background, so u dun find it so difficult to learn.

Startin this may... 2 days a week. prolly one week day n one week end. 20 lessons for $100. the venue is NYP studio. veri veri good deal lohx.. the instructor is Joviene Ee i think.. My fren says she's am asia pacific professional dancer. so if ur interested, let mi noe asap. coz u have to sign up for it.. e details have not been confrm yet. so look here for updates if ur interested.

Come n join la!! wld b a gd exp even if ur nt destined or interested to do it professionally. lolx